Bridge

I’m trying to find a way to be happy that is compartmentalized, common, and oh. so. safe.

I begin to miss the days when what I did seemed challenging. I tried to run towards the next place at a break-neck pace and found myself what I thought was a transitional place.

I’m standing on a bridge that suddenly ended. I’m not at the end, but I can see it. I’m not running anymore. I feel like I should run to the end, but then what do I do there? I don’t want to stop. I guess I’m supposed to slow down, stop, and keep building it. I’m inching along, but I want to run.

I could jump at the end.

I thought someone would understand rather than telling me, “Of course it ended, it wasn’t going to go on forever.” They wave the five-year plan at me as if this wasn’t my plan when I started building. They say it as if five years starts right now instead of at the beginning of the bridge years ago. Then, were they saying five? Now they’re saying ten as if it’s nothing.

If I jump off the bridge, it’ll be cold and scary, but I can learn to swim or I’ll die trying.

I’m trying to find a way to be happy that fits in a world that I don’t understand. I’m good at the motions and I can rehearse the dance, but I’m still not a successful drone. I can’t seem to accept what others have accepted. I can’t sit still. My path forward ends.

Jump, I’ll learn to swim. I don’t need footholds, warmth, and land, or do I?

Standing and swaying on the bridge I built, all of my hard work. If it doesn’t go anywhere, does it mean anything? Many will tell you it’s the journey that matters, but a dead-end bridge is useless, pointless, and dangerous.

I could start over. I could build a new bridge: gather the materials, plan it out, and start anew. Maybe then I could map my destination in a more meaningful way. Maybe I won’t get lost this time. How many bridges have I started, and where am I even trying to go? Trying not to fall in isn’t answer enough. My head is more than above water, and I want something more.

I read somewhere recently, “Sitting in offices, doing work that has no meaning is the quickest way to become profoundly unhappy.” Is that what I’m doing? My job does have meaning, surely. Just like most jobs I’ve had, at their core I am helping people. What do you do? I help people. I help people using my skills and talents. That has meaning.

The motions repeat, and still I feel like there should be more. This section of the bridge feels so much like the last.

I lay down some more planks and inch forward. The bridge is solid. I become a better builder every bit I finish. I just wish I knew where I was going.

Ochopika and Woot Shirt Design

Ochopika is someone I went to art school with who has recently decided to take up shirt design in the form of Woot derbies. Here are ten of my favorite submissions. I personally enjoy these very much.

If you’d like some context, click on the images to view the derby page. There you can see Ochopika’s explanation, other people’s comments, how many votes it got, and what the theme of the derby was.


So keep an eye out for her on Shirt Woot and vote for her designs!

Minecraft: Diary of a Miner Part 2

Work at Pigeon continues. I constructed the Stargate.



Also, the stairs go all the way from the Stargate and Nether Portal in the sky, down to the bedrock now. I’m working on making the stairs entirely encased so you don’t have to worry about creepers (or getting your pet dogs wet).



I miss my base at Aerie. The world known as Floaty has been my home and favorite place, but since the Nether Portals all come back out at Bunnies (the main world), I don’t really have a choice but to rebuild here.



I still go to Aerie. I can get to the Nether from there via the Nether Portal I built, it’s just a one-way ticket. It will spit me back out at Pigeon. So, to get back to Aerie I’d have to go back through the Stargate. Since the 1.6 update that also logs me off and accuses me of hacking, so I have to log back in too.

Hopefully Minecraft will one day natively have multiworld support. For right now I’m slowly rebuilding in the main world known as Bunnies.

Minecraft: Diary of a Miner

The Minecraft deity known as Notch released update 1.6 recently which allows Nether Portals to work on Multiplayer Servers like the one I play on.

Since Minecraft itself doesn’t support multiple worlds, we all knew that something weird was going to happen when we built and went through a Nether Portal in another world. Maybe nothing would happen. Maybe each world would have it’s own Nether.

What really happens is a lot less exciting. Every portal in every world goes to the main world’s Nether. Then, if you go back through that gate, it spits you somewhere in the main world (Bunnies).

The first time I tried this, I went through a Nether Portal near the Floaty Stargate. Floaty is a world I spend a lot of time in. I found myself suspended high above some lava with little room to move somewhere in The Nether. Then I went back through before I fell or was killed by ghasts and ended up in the middle of the ground somewhere in Bunnies right by a monster spawner. I died a few times and repeated going back through. I cleaned out the area and Kiashien helped me make a Stargate called Bridge so that I could get out of wherever it was I’d ended up.

I’m pretty good at exploring The Nether. I practiced in our “psudo-nether” world (Stargates Nether1 and Glowstone). These were created using multi-world before the 1.6 update. In those days glowstone dropped less glowstone dust when harvested. I was pretty obsessed with finding a ‘prettier’ light source than torches, torches, and more torches to use in my bases and other creations. So, I did a lot of exploring and digging and building in The Nether. Ghasts were a huge problem because at that point, I couldn’t actually see the ghasts correctly. They would flicker across the screen as if they were in multiple spots at once and I couldn’t see their projectiles flying at me. So, dodging them and hitting them back at the ghasts was impossible. Killing ghasts was all guesswork.

So, when I was given a Nether Gate high above open lava with barely a platform to stand on and a lot of ghasts spawning, I said, “Challenge Accepted”.

I don’t die a lot in Minecraft, but here I died about a half dozen times trying to make a place to stand and walls around the portal.

Each time I died I’d end up in at the Bunnies spawn point by our main base Chuck. It didn’t matter that I’d slept in other beds in Bunnies, which is supposed to reset your spawn point to the bed. I spawned there every time. Each time I’d go into Chuck and hop the stargate to Floaty. Since the 1.6 update, Minecraft disconnects every time you transport to another world using a Stargate, accusing you of hacking. I’d reconnect, then go through the Nether Portal there and end up back in The Nether.

The last time I was there I actually made a lot of progress, but still messed up and fell to my doom. I was back at Chuck and made my way back to Floaty. This time, though, I didn’t end up at that same gate in The Nether. Instead I ended up coming out of a gate in the Nether that was fairly secure. I explored the tunnels for awhile and made the place a bit more homey. I mined some glowstone. I didn’t have a lot of supplies since I expected to end up back at the deathtrap and die again. Once I decided I needed to get some wood and other things, I went through the gate. I expected to come out at Bridge.

Instead I ended up under water at night somewhere. I swam up and looked around. It was a river. The banks had forested mountains. Our Other Places mod told me that I was closest to Bridge, but closest is a relative term since nothing familiar was anywhere in sight.

I didn’t have any supplies on me except netherrack, a shovel, and a flint and steel. Since I had no torches, I placed some blocks of nertherrack and lit them on fire to try to keep the bad mobs from spawning on top of me, then I waited in the water for morning. Things didn’t look any better in the morning. I was very, very lost. Kiashien decided it was okay to teleport me back to civilization since it seemed like the game had glitched.

Some people might decide to do something else at this point, but this just made me want to try again, and yes, possibly get stranded. However, this time I brought obsidian to make a stargate. That way if I was stranded, I could get myself out.

The Nether Gate went to the same place as before. After working for a short period of time, I stepped back into the Portal.



For the love of cheese, where am I now?



Oh, hey. It’s the netherrack beacons I made before! So I did come out at the same spot. It seems like last time the game fast forwarded to me falling and ending up below in the water. I had almost nowhere to stand, so it makes sense that I fell and, no, I didn’t think to look up.

So, now I’m here and I can build a Stargate, right? Actually, I need to build a place to stand first.



Watching night fall was pretty awesome. Since I was so high up I could see it fall on the lower elevations first and progress to other areas.



I worked through the night to build a platform around the Nether Portal. So, now I can build yet another Stargate.

The question still remains, what happened to the Nether Portal suspended over lava?

The better question is what happened to the Nether Portal at Bridge? Is it still there? What happens if I go through it?

I don’t know what happened to the Nether Portal suspended above lava and I kind of doubt I’ll ever find it again.

The Nether Portal at Bridge goes to this new, same spot in The Nether. When you go back through, it goes to this new little platform high in the sky.

This new Stargate, once it’s done, I think I’ll call it Pigeon because it’s kind of annoying and high up in the sky. That and this whole thing has been a pile of bird poop.

To be a useful place at all, there needs to be a way to get down, so I made a leap of faith into the river and started building a staircase…


As you can see, the rain is pooping on my head like a pigeon as I build away.